Thursday, January 10, 2008

trying and failing

Okay, so it's January again. Last January I made the whole commitment to the HealthQuest 2007, lost 40 pounds, quit smoking, quit biting my fingernails, eliminated processed foods (for the most part), quit drinking Coke-in-a-can, started exercising, cleaned up my apartment, started getting my finances in order.

And, now? Well, some backsliding occurred on all fronts, friends. I've gained back 29 pounds (ouch, it hurts to type that), re-started smoking, my fingertips look like miniature bald-headed men, have been eating for shit and drinking Coke-in-a-can with abandon (damn the spicy and delicious dark waters of capitalism!), am a lazy ass, and have a cluttered apartment.

But, on the bright side, the finances are in slightly better shape and I have a new car. And, I'm a much better cook.

So, back to the drawing board. But, I'm thinking that maybe I should be a little more moderate in my approach instead of tackling everything at once. But, I'm having a hard time getting started. I obviously know what I need to do, so why aren't I doing it?

I think I'm mildly depressed right now, and when I think back to when everything started going to hell, I think it was around the same time as my awesome therapist split town for the wild, wild west.

So, step 1, find a new therapist that is hopefully 1/10th as awesome as my old one.

Blah. It's embarrassing to admit all this stuff, and I feel like a failure. Yuck. I hope you're all doing better than I am.

Okay, enough of that.

There's a movie coming to the Pittsburgh Filmmakers next week that sounds awesome and Pollan-esque. Here's the scoop:

King Corn
This is the entertaining, intelligent story of two friends, one acre of corn, and the subsidized crop that drives our fast-food nation. In this we-are-what-we-eat documentary we follow best friends from college on the east coast, as they move west to learn where food comes from. With the help of friendly neighbors, genetically modified seeds, and powerful herbicides, they plant and grow a bumper crop of America's most-productive, most-subsidized grain on one acre of Iowa soil. But when they try to follow their pile of corn into the food system, what they find raises troubling questions about how we eat, and how we farm. (Aaron Woolf; USA; 2007; 88 min)

All tickets for Thursday 5:30 shows at the Harris are just $5, thanks to 1410 KQV-AM.

Mon 1/14 thru Wed 1/16 – 7:30 ... Thu 1/17 –5:30, 7:30
Harris Theater
809 Liberty Ave, Downtown / 412-682-4111

And, speaking of Michael Pollan, his new book is out, In Defense of Food. I'm waiting with bated breath to get my copy from the library. [Oh, squee! Just checked the library site, and it's in! I'll pick it up tomorrow over lunch!]. Reading The Omnivore's Dilemma last year was a big part of motivating me to eat better; I'm hoping the new one will help me get back on track.


A said...

Can you do polls on this thing?

Anyway, if you're just going to pick one thing to work on, then I vote for giving up Coke.

Nat said...

I vote for smoking because it will be the one single thing you can do that will instantly put years on your life, not to mention QUALITY years near the end of your life. But I didn't want to make my comment all preachy so I'll stop now. What I *really* wanted to comment on was that you really are not giving yourself enough credit, E! You did not gain 29 pounds last year--overall you lost 11 pounds!! So you should really pat yourself on the back for that, because you lost AND kept off all that weight, and we all know how hard that, I'm sure you are still eating better overall, including healthy, local items in there with the junk food, which is an improvement over strictly processed and junky stuff. You are my hero for all the time you spend shopping and cooking, I swear. It sounds like your financial health is also better and improving every day, too, right? So between meeting some of your health goals and getting a new car, I hope that you think of yourself as having accomplished a lot in 2007, and that you are looking forward to a more moderate, gentler 2008. Word.

pleasantlyfurious said...

"damn the spicy and delicious dark waters of capitalism!" - oh that captures it so well.

Ease up a little, I think you are an inspiration.

nowlze said...

i think you're an inpriation, too. that said, i also vote for you giving up the cigs.

i want to see the corn movie. "go pick up corn" demands alex the parrot.

bdub has been saying "feeling great in oh- eight". maybe you could adopt it as your personal slogan, too?

Kara said...

I think that the word "trying" in the title of your post is what makes me see your quest last year as a success. You've learned a lot, have been generous in sharing that with others- and you haven't given up, even when you feel stuck. That's how I know that you will continue to make changes this year- and I can't wait to read, etc. all about it.